should you be bitter hate full or tear full?
i cant say for sure i know it is painful,
when anything end sin life it hurts, more then you wish it would you want to hide yourself away from the world, refuse to become close to anyone or anything yet again.
Should you blame yourself ?
No i dont think so , every one makes mistakes and has fault in life - it hurts its a pain but you cannot regret the past you cannot pretend it did not happen undo the way you feel - when its over its over.
I guess you learn and grow, you love live and learn
time heals all wounds
some just takes more time then other.